It hasn't been an easy couple of years, and I can't see an end to it yet! Divorcing a narcissist is a long, drawn out event. The narc always believes they are right, just like they always have. I have done everything requested of me but I just learned that he is still holding out on items that he needs to do-still. It is totally out of my control just like always.
If I had known I would be divorced at any time of this weird relationship, I would have made the move to divorce instead of trying to stay in an unhealthy marriage. I wouldn't have to attempt to rebuild my life at this late stage when I am supposed to be looking forward to growing old gracefully and an empty nest.
The narcissist picked an incredibly bad time to leave and my teen at home is still dealing with major depression, multiple medications and trying to finish high school. Of course I am taking care of this all on my own.
My kids now face a future with no family, and possible problematic relationships of their own as we were not appropriate role models to base a good marriage on. I didn't want them to grow up without a dad but that may have been the better choice.
Maybe they could have had a new and improved loving family instead of none.
At least the part where I am trying to reinvent myself seems to be working out, here are links to two current articles.
Huffington Post Divorce section: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/what-its-like-to-get-a-divorce-and-start-over-at-58_55f84fc5e4b09ecde1d9d303
Divorced Moms: http://divorcedmoms.com/articles/frenemies-3-reasons-ill-never-be-friends-with-my-ex
Thanks for following along and I hope someone out there knows that they are not alone.
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