Looking back on my marriage, I used to envy friends whose husbands went away on business trips. When they would remark how often their husbands had to be away on business I would laugh and say "I wish my husband would go away on business!" I really did wish that, at least then every day would not have been full of indifference and exasperation and maybe, just maybe we would have had a chance to miss one another! Well now he is gone (at least from the house) and I can no longer make that joke.
It makes me a little concerned about some of the other subjects I used to joke about, like how my son would use his charming personality for good or evil. Now he seems to be trying to use it to manipulate me, which I am well aware of and not at all amused.
I do believe that whatever you impart to the universe, you usually receive. My mother is a perfect example of this, it seems she has always put forth negativity and in her life she has never had a lot of happiness come her way.
I have always tried to live the opposite way, I have always tried to remain happy and positive even in the worse circumstances (after all most of us never want to be like our parents) and now I am trying to recall all of the other things I must have joked about, worried that some more may come around to bite me in the butt!
One nice thing I have gotten is my own blog on DIvorcedmoms.com, it is called Divorce Rehab, My Rocky Road To Recovery! I hope you will join me on my road trip, you know it has been a bumpy ride! http://divorcedmoms.com/blogs/divorce-rehab
I have also copied this blog into a Wordpress blog where I can include my photography, https://ididntloseahusbandigainedclosetspace.wordpress.com. I will continue to post to both.
