Divorce Support Hearing Postponed! Really!

I can’t believe my luck. My hopefully soon to be ex (now not so hopefully soon) has been out of the house for almost a year. We finally had our first court date for a support hearing scheduled for next month and now it is being rescheduled.  Another month or more away. Why does this take so long?

Really? Rescheduled? Now? How long do I have to live in suspense? How long do I have to postpone my life? I am not getting any younger.

I have tried not to mind the waiting. I try to stay happy and not think about the loss of control of my own life. I hate waiting for the support checks that may or may not come this month or next month. I was hoping that the court would be able to enforce the checks to at least be on time.

I gave up my own sense of security, receiving my own salary for a career I loved. A career where I was respected. People listened to me AND I was taken to lunch! 

I gave up my freedom and enjoyment of my own life to help a man with his freedom and his life. In repayment for my sacrifice, I received heartache, and indifference. He didn’t appreciate anything I had to offer because in the end my life had no importance to any one but me. I wish I had known.

Even with all of this, I am so thankful and happy for my children, they are worth everything I have gone through and will go through. I would walk through fire for them.

I've been thinking; If people were forced to go through a divorce before they got married, I bet there would be a lot less marriages. And of course a lot less divorces!

My Cheap Fashion Fix

Charles David 

Jessica Suede and Tiger Wedges 

Regular price $295

Purchased at Ross

$8.99

My Life as a Zombie, (I mean divorced mom, but it feels the same)!

I'm really looking forward to the new season of "The Walking Dead".  I have always enjoyed the show before, but ever since my separation, I feel that I can really relate to a group of zombies that everyone runs or tries to hide from. Since this all started married friends have run from me as if I was a member of the living dead. The perfect piece of evidence that I have become a zombie: my husband (that I spent 30 years with) doesn't seem to recognize me anymore and whenever we meet he looks right through me as if I wasn't there.

What happened to the good old days when friends tried to fix you up on blind dates? It may not always have worked out for the best but at least it gave you good material for stories and got you out of the house. Working for my husband meant that I wasn't meeting anyone at work and now that I have been forced into the world of online dating I am still alone and at home. Are all the dating sites filled with other zombies? Are we all just mere shells of our former selves? Trying desperately to connect online in hopes of being rescued and meeting someone capable of jump starting our hearts in the hope of becoming human again.

Maybe I have always been a zombie, maybe that's why he could never see the real me. And maybe, just maybe, even zombies can be taught to live and love again. Here's to hoping!

 My Cheap Fashion Fix

A Golden Brown Linen Wrap Skirt

Lauren By Ralph Lauren

Listed on Ebay for $147.99

From DAV Disabled American Veteran's Thrift Store

$4.95

YAY!